I did not go to school. I know, I know...I should have. I have skipped way too much school for my own good. I just find myself having less and less motivation to go.
Here is what I think is going on under the surface. I am 'alone time' starving. I need...I crave...alone time. I spend 8 hours of my day surrounded by so much crap that I am battling (consciously or unconsciously) the entire time. After that, I go home and stay up until midnight with people...lots of people. I love it, don't get me wrong...there is a massive extroverted part of me.
What lots of people don't realize is that there is a part of me that wants to be alone with some music and a cup of tea and a clean atmosphere to think and contemplate and do nothing in particular. I LONG for quiet...rest...
So, some days I don't go to school so I can be alone for a little while. It is the worse excuse. I know that I need to honour my commitments and blah blah blah...
HAHA....my attitude about it sucks. I am trying to convince you, and me, that I am somehow justified in my irresponsibility...
ON A MORE SPIRITUAL NOTE:
Currently listening to a Podcast
Bill Johnson:
a paraphrase of his thoughts on Acts 10:38....
I have NO interest in dabbling with the prophetic. In dabbling in the Kingdom.
I am driven by a standard that to my knowledge has never been duplicated...
the standard is: He healed ALL who came to Him. It is the only acceptable standard.
When Gods presence is with you, you are obligated to conquer something.
WOW!!
Alright...now...another note...
My roommate just went through every baked good at Second Cup and touched it with a pen. Thanks to her dozens of people will probably be ill due to ink poisoning.
She made a really really good drink for me though...so I am not suggesting she be fired....
And another note....
I am simply trying to waste time here by babbling about whatever comes to mind.
I have been thinking about my dreams in life lots and lots recently...because I don't have many outside of a marriage...
Here is what I came up with (including some inspired ideas from the Lord through other people):
~Will work as a inner healing counselor
~Will work with children that are not my own
~Will live in another country for some period of my life...probably the US and the UK
~Will speak at conferences
~Will be a seasoned singer/songwriter
~Will understand depths of the fathers heart that most people will never begin to fathom
~Will challenge and change the hearts of hundreds
~and I guess....I will have my hairdressing license. And will use it from time to time...
Well, that is what I came up with.
I am drinking a pumpkin spice latte. It has coffee in it. bleehhh. Oh well. It is still okay. I just can't stand anything coffee right now. I have to have a craving for it, and right now I don't.
I am going to leave now. I am bored now...it is time to go. I need to pay attention to this message...
BILL JUST SAID:
"How much does it take to push you in regards to thing you are hoping for. At what point do we say thank-you? What was small becomes great in the atmosphere of thankfulness. It helps to feed off of what God is doing instead of what He hasn't done. eg. Jesus and the loaves and the fishes."
Goal in life: find single young man like Bill and live with him for the rest of my life.
If the Lord wills it.
GOING NOW!
