shhhh...

I walked to work today. I walk to work every day, but for some reason today was different. I smiled to whole way to work. When I started at Roberta Place (a long term care facility for seniors) it took me 45 minutes to walk there. I have always been an active person (I like to do stuff), but I have never been a routinly physically active individual. Last week, I would wake up in the morning and dread the day (mostly because of the exausting 1.5 hours of walking). Now its different. The endorphines are really kicking in. It only takes me 30 minutes to walk there now (don't ask, cuz I sure don't know). I find myself walking to places even on my days off. Yesterday, I walked to walmart...it took me an hour. It was worth it. Wether I like it or not, I am going to be a walkaholic for at least a year. Even the bus stop is a 20 minute walk. I am so glad that I was forced into this routine. I feel the benefits. I am sure you will all see them in the next coming months ;)

Now, something else I was thinking about. I don't know when I became such an 'inside' thinker. I don't think I said more than three sentances at work today. I know with my closer friends I tend to talk a lot. Actually, come to think of it, I am sure even what I share with them has decreased over the years. I don't know why I became so private. I don't think it is maturity, cuz I still have thoughts...and let me tell you...they are far from it. I would tell most people anything if they asked (hmm...is that true? *deep thought* For the most part, I guess). So why is it that I keep quiet?

When I was at Singing Waters, a couple people confronted me on this. They called me a private person. Its interesting. Maybe it is a good thing. I don't know. Sometimes it doesn't feel so good. Like tonight at work, it didn't feel right. I felt like I should be saying stuff. I have opportunities every day to spread joy...I don't. How do you just open up without being obnoxious? Maybe it is evidence of some issues I have had with being shut down or something. I don't know.

Like I said, it is just me processing. I don't know what the answer is. I don't know if it is good or bad. I am just going with the flow.

I am registering for school in september this week. I am so pumped. Thanks for all your support in this. I am going to be a fantastic hairdresser...among other things...this is just a start:)