Easter is Over!

How did I miss it?! We had four days off at Singing Waters to enjoy Easter. I spent the first two and a half days in complete solitude (very boring) and the last day and half at home. I did not do anything eventful. I think I watched a few too many movies, yes...I definitely did. Anyone who can honestly admit to seeing 8 movies in less than two days needs some serious personal reconstruction. My brain feels like a zip-lock bag full of apple sauce that has just been salvaged from the kitchen floor after falling off of the top shelf of the refrigerator. Its sad, its true.

This Easter was really weird. Every Easter my church has a youth conference called Fresh Wind. It was the first one in 10 years that I have not attended. Its kind of a bitter sweet feeling. It seems I have been walking away from my past in steps. I never really thought about it that way before. I have always been so preoccupied with looking to the future, and trying to figure out what I am supposed to be doing. I wasn't focused at all on the fact that my hands were holding firmly on to something impossible for me to take with me. Hmm...perhaps I should process a little more before I say much else.

I had another problem with this Easter. If it were not for the fact that I made myself watch The Passion of Christ, I would have done nothing Jesus focused at all this weekend. What has this holiday become? I ate the chocolate, that's for sure. I got together with family. I hardly think a prayer before we eat dinner is sufficiant thanks on the anniversary of a death for my sin. It just seems so...off balance.

Its getting late. I must go to bed. Will write later.